A moment of realization

Going beyond my typical new year’s resolutions, I started changing last year. The way I see it, I should not have to change for a new year, but because I want to change myself. Not to fit into the typical gap and latching onto what everyone else is doing, because then I wont do anything. 

I don’t like that – it gets absolutely nothing done.

So, I started reading the bible last year, using the bible app for it’s useful plans as a kick starter. From there, I would get motivated to read a psalm or a proverb and enlighten myself one day at a time.

The other day I came across a simple story about Noah saying that just because he was righteous and blameless doesn’t mean he never sinned. It means that he wholeheartedly loved and obeyed God. This is something that I am very aware of,( “for all have sinned and come short of the glory of God.” Rom 3:23). However, the very last question the small excerpt had for me to dwell on was, “are we influencing others or being influenced by them?” I thought long and hard about this question, about who I was now, who I was in my past and who I wanted to be. To any other person not focusing or taking the question in depth would say, ” i think i influence others”, but that’s just it, you think you’re doing something influential, you think that you’re being a change. You should never think that, you should be certain, not prideful, but aware. Not gloating, but conscious. 

Before I read the given verse of Gen 6:9, I thought and responded truthfully to myself and to God. I am easily influenced by others. Fitting in is a huge issue with many people, we all want to please one another and no one takes a stand to be the changer. I want to change, I always have and so I shall. It’s easier said than done. You need to get out of the shell, cut loose from whatever is holding you to your comfort zone. It’s okay to have a comfort zone, but it shouldn’t be what you cling to in ever situation no matter how simple. 

That same day, while I was still hyped up on the Word, I read another plan that gave me 1 Thess 5:16-18, ” Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.”

I am a person who struggles with her emotions, and this verse moved me. It moved me to the point where I felt unstoppable. I know for a fact that I can be a change. I was already given a leader, now all I need to be is a follower. Following the Word, its wisdom and it’s little tips to get through life. As Phil 4:13 says, ” I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” 

No life is not simple, yes times will get hard, so hard to the point where you want to give up, but it’s important that you keep going because as it says, all throughout the bible, God has a plan. Even if you don’t believe in God, or any religion, you were put on this earth for a reason. To be in contact with other living beings, to thrive in the green, to look up at the various blue and to travel around this huge globe and find so much more.


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