A moment of realization

Going beyond my typical new year’s resolutions, I started changing last year. The way I see it, I should not have to change for a new year, but because I want to change myself. Not to fit into the typical gap and latching onto what everyone else is doing, because then I wont do anything. 

I don’t like that – it gets absolutely nothing done.

So, I started reading the bible last year, using the bible app for it’s useful plans as a kick starter. From there, I would get motivated to read a psalm or a proverb and enlighten myself one day at a time.

The other day I came across a simple story about Noah saying that just because he was righteous and blameless doesn’t mean he never sinned. It means that he wholeheartedly loved and obeyed God. This is something that I am very aware of,( “for all have sinned and come short of the glory of God.” Rom 3:23). However, the very last question the small excerpt had for me to dwell on was, “are we influencing others or being influenced by them?” I thought long and hard about this question, about who I was now, who I was in my past and who I wanted to be. To any other person not focusing or taking the question in depth would say, ” i think i influence others”, but that’s just it, you think you’re doing something influential, you think that you’re being a change. You should never think that, you should be certain, not prideful, but aware. Not gloating, but conscious. 

Before I read the given verse of Gen 6:9, I thought and responded truthfully to myself and to God. I am easily influenced by others. Fitting in is a huge issue with many people, we all want to please one another and no one takes a stand to be the changer. I want to change, I always have and so I shall. It’s easier said than done. You need to get out of the shell, cut loose from whatever is holding you to your comfort zone. It’s okay to have a comfort zone, but it shouldn’t be what you cling to in ever situation no matter how simple. 

That same day, while I was still hyped up on the Word, I read another plan that gave me 1 Thess 5:16-18, ” Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.”

I am a person who struggles with her emotions, and this verse moved me. It moved me to the point where I felt unstoppable. I know for a fact that I can be a change. I was already given a leader, now all I need to be is a follower. Following the Word, its wisdom and it’s little tips to get through life. As Phil 4:13 says, ” I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” 

No life is not simple, yes times will get hard, so hard to the point where you want to give up, but it’s important that you keep going because as it says, all throughout the bible, God has a plan. Even if you don’t believe in God, or any religion, you were put on this earth for a reason. To be in contact with other living beings, to thrive in the green, to look up at the various blue and to travel around this huge globe and find so much more.


What is God?

When someone sees the title “What is God?” they will probably think the logically and say “this is a God post” and probably scroll past it. It is, but I contemplated something the other day as far as misogyny  and giving items their own personal sex goes. When I read the bible I see the words “Father” and “He” often in relevance to God and it only makes me think. Who has seen God to know in fact what gender he is? Yes, we should look to him as a loving father, but also as a caring mother, since, God created us in his/her image. So pardon me if I seem a bit confused but, isn’t creation between two people? Of course that is as far as people go, but God is in fact a God, and there were no people with him. If you do read the Bible you will know that God made Adam out of dirt and Eve out of the rib of Adam.

Which, brings me to my solid question of what is God? I see him as the omnisexual. He is all sexes and no sex at the same time. God is a creator, the maker of humanity and not to be delegated or deemed with specific genders ( and races but that is a whole other story ).  In books like “The Shack” and “Crossroads” (W.P. Young) God is virtually anyone. In the Shack he was a prominent black woman, whereas in Crossroads he was a little girl. If we were to just imagine God as any person we are obliged to to so however our minds let us. I personally view God as a close friend to talk to ( it makes praying less awkward personally ). 

God is man and woman into one. As it says in Exodus 3: 14  “God said to Moses ‘I am, Who I Am'”… There is no gender specific. So the next time you’re in church and see/hear God being called a he just remember God is Who God is.

Beginning of the End!

December 21. 2012

 The publicly proclaimed end of the world. Fear being shown through thousands of hearts and minds as people slept thinking that they would awaken to mass hysteria and death around them. Unfortunately for them, they woke up the their everyday lives continuing, which only brings me to my first question: What were you going to do?

If the world would end, what were you going to do about it? Go back to the faith you ignored, find a faith to believe in and pray to God? Or would you have just accepted it knowing that you would go to heaven, or at least thinking you were.  Yes, we have the technology and capability to ” fight back”, but what exactly were we going to fight back against? These questions will continue to stick with me, but until something happens, I shall continue living my life for Christ. No matter how many false prophets come out and declare the end I will always know that no one knows the time or the day, and if the world were to end in my lifetime then I would wait for Jesus to return to the Earth and take his people. All his people, from the meek to the strong.  


Youth Group

I’m pretty certain that if it were not for youth group, I would have lost faith. 

If it were not for the Godly people that surrounded me prior I would have been lost.

I thank God everyday for what he has done for me, and it has been so much compared to all the bad that has happened. Satan can not and will not control me anymore, because what happens here on this earth is only temporary. I have so much more to come and I am thrilled. It is God who knows where I go in life, he knew when he sent his son down to die for  me. 

I am a daughter of Christ among my huge family of Christians. We follow no religion, we just love our God to know limits because he is a deserving, almighty, powerful, loving God who will provide in all our darkest times.


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