I’m not in mourning, I’m just filled with emotion

” It is this belief that made us who we were, but also many other things, all of them vital-
And all of the things that made us great were the very things that were going to end us-

Fiction. Friction. Creation. Destruction. Opposition. Aggression. Ambition. Heart. Hate. Courage. Spite. Beauty. Desperation. LOVE. Fear. Glamour. Weakness. Hope.

Fatalism. 

That last one is very important. My Chemical Romance had, built within its core, a fail-safe. A doomsday device, should certain events occur or cease occurring, would detonate. I shared knowledge of this “flaw” within weeks of its inception. 
Personally, I embraced it because, again, it made us perfect. A perfect machine, beautiful, yet self aware of it’s system. Under directive to terminate before it becomes compromised. To protect the idea- at all costs. This probably sounds like something ripped from the pages of a four-color comic book, and that’s the point.
No compromise. No surrender. No ****ing ****.

To me that’s rock and roll. And I believe in rock and roll.” – Gerard Way

All I can really say is that I loved this man more than I probably love myself and to some that probably sounds unsafe, or unhealthy. Well, it’s the truth. MCR was a very big, very important part in my life. Though I never made it seem like such a thing, I never made myself, visually look like a super fan, I never had a chance to go to any of their concerts. I didn’t have a lot of their merch, but I listened to their music. I listened to their words and their words spoke to me. They may not speak to a lot of people but they hit home for me. Especially songs from “The Black Parade”. I don’t care what you say, that entire album was THE album for me, and apparently a lot of the other fans as well. More importantly,”Famous Last Words” but that’s a whole other topic. 

You may just say, ” It’s just a band” but it’s not. It’s a life saver. That’s what music does it saves lives. It brings that little part of hope, that little voice that tells you, you can’t vanishes and all you can feel is what’s going through your headphones or your speakers. It’s the relief you get from screaming those lyrics at the top of your lungs and having NOTHING bring you day for that moment, that hour, that day or even forever. 

Most importantly, it’s not even the music, it’s the people and MCR has such a wonderful group of talented people. A talented family with a beautifully broken fanbase. An Army and MCRmy that is basically unstoppable even in their brokenness . However, me, personally, what I can take from My Chemical Romance, what I can take from Gerard is that it is okay to be different. It’s okay to be broken. It’s okay to be YOU and I will continue to live by the quote Gerard told us so long ago. 

“Stay beautiful. Keep it ugly.”

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